A client's husband told me about the University of Santa Monica and that I should consider going there for my Master's in Psychology and I love the way the program looks! It calls itself the Center for the Study and Practice of Spiritual Psychology (http://www.gousm.edu/) and it is right up my alley. My friend said that in the second of three years there, one develops their own heart-driven project that continues being completed through graduation and he suspects I could really do something powerful with women who've been birth traumatized. I love his vote of confidence!
Reviewing my distress over the woman's comments about what I have to offer a cesarean woman in recovery, I have repeated, over and over, Don't Take Anything Personally - one of the Four Agreements (which IS my new and imbedding lesson; the four agreements, not just that one). And with that comes Always Do Your Best. And so I do and shall and strive to continue to do.
I've gotten some interesting comments about the UC blogspot from yesterday. One UCer spoke about the risk of UC versus the risk of the shit from the hospital or doctor or midwife and I can sort of understand. What has happened is women purposefully choose a midwife they think will honor their wishes and then are betrayed - and it is in this space that women choose UC and take the risk of their baby possibly dying.
I am reminded (in my own head) that women and babies die in the hospital, too. Women risk that every single time. Yet, the wrath of the world is not on those women simply because they are seen as doing everything to save themselves or the baby - and they also do not, for the most part, take responsibility for the outcome, either. Perhaps it is a more mature decision to UC than I like to acknowledge sometimes.
Hannah says in the comments in my previous post that I acknowledge the thinking process and the capability to change my mind or at least consider changing my mind. Sometimes I wonder if I can make any decision and make it stick! Am I wishy-washy as hell? Or am I able to turn the prism around and around to see all the colors individually and together all at the same time? I wonder if it's stupid to not dig my heels in about UC - be staunchly anti or for - one way or any other. But I can see all sides and that can't be a totally bad thing, can it?