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Dec212006

I'M NOT CRAZY!!!

(well, in this way, anyway)

Okay, listen to this.

I know people want to blame things on this medical condition or the other, but this time, I HAVE AN EXCUSE.

(sorry I'm shouting - I feel like shouting everything)

I go to my magical Psychiatrist and off-handedly ask her to check on my UTI labs because, of course, no one can bother to call me to tell me what my UTI is. Oh, look! They forgot to do a UA. How silly of them! Grrrr. Anyway, She begins looking at my other labs because I ask her to.

I needed a slew of labs drawn that day and she scanned my labs that had already been drawn over the last 5 years and I show her how my Thyroid ones were always slightly off, but no one ever addressed that. She said that without further testing, the basic labs would make it look like they are normal and I told her I knew that and I told the docs I knew that and how annoying it is that I told them that but no one ever would draw any other labs. She said she would - and did. (I'll have to ask her what she drew.)

I got a call from my doc yesterday that said I have Hypothalamic Hypothyroidism aka Tertiary Hypothyroidism. The symptoms are the same as with Hypothyroidism - just more so.

I AM NOT CRAZY!!!

It seems that having a hypothyroid mimics Alzheimer's in many people. raising hand

It seems that having a hypothyroid makes people extremely exhausted all the time. raising hand

It seems that having a hypothyroid makes some people hurt, ache, be in pain all the time. raising hand

It seems that having a hypothyroid makes some people struggle in depression even when all the normal routes and avenues are covered. raising hand

It seems that people with an hypothyroid struggle with their weight even when "doing everything right." raising hand

It seems that people with an hypothyroid have a voice like Lauren Bacall. raising hand

It seems that my thin hair, my always being cold, my lack of sweating, my thick skin (not the kind that keeps me from crying, though), my high cholesterol, and my having to take fiber pills might all be related to my thyroid, too.

I should be starting the meds tonight and should feel some relief in 2 days and much, much better in a week. Wouldn't that be amazing? Can you imagine? If I didn't feel like I was going to faint anymore? If I didn't feel like I needed a nap three times a day? If I had hair again? If I didn't feel like I was a candidate for the looney bin?

I can't wait to see what my new norm is.

I can hardly wait.

wiping tears because I am so thrilled to not be crazy for knowing it wasn't in my head

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Reader Comments (6)

I remember when my mother started essentially losing her mind when I was a teenager. Turns out it was her thyroid. The couple of years before they figured it out were horrible. It was a such a relief when they figured out it was her thyroid. I'm glad someone finally listened to you.

December 21, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterHeather

THIS is SUCH good news!!!

I can't wait to hear how much better you feel...

Hugs, Hh

Congratulations! I hope you get some relief.

December 23, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterHeather

Look how smart you are and how willing you are to speak up for yourself and yet -- here you are with your illness untreated for so long! I hope you feel way better in no time at all.

For years I have said that it is hard to get good medical care. I am the one who diagnosed my roseacea which had gotten quite advanced over the several years I tried to get my doctor to diagnose me properly. It took six months of treatment to take down the swelling of my nose which made me look like a drunkard.

A few years ago, I was left to languish is agony from the pain of pancreatitis for 50 additional minutes after being admitted to a hospital floor because no one seemed willing or able to walk the 20 feet to get the additional pain meds that my doctor had ordered. My husband was beside himself as he watched me moan and sweat and writhe in pain. I do know what a number 10 pain feels like.

I think we all need a doula or someone like a doula to advocate for us when we are unable to do so for ourselves.

December 23, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterRose Marie

I'm glad you pushed it! I've been dealing with hypo since I was 15 and I've thought meany time I was insane. welcome to the new normal club we glad to have you!

December 26, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterSara Badger

I am so happy for you. I had the same feeling when finally being diagnosed with PCOS! I kept saying, something is wrong, something is wrong, and finally someone listened to me...it changes everything!

Good luck with healing and finding your new normal!

LP

December 28, 2006 | Unregistered Commenter"Loving Pecola"

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