(well, in this way, anyway)
Okay, listen to this.
I know people want to blame things on this medical condition or the other, but this time, I HAVE AN EXCUSE.
(sorry I'm shouting - I feel like shouting everything)
I go to my magical Psychiatrist and off-handedly ask her to check on my UTI labs because, of course, no one can bother to call me to tell me what my UTI is. Oh, look! They forgot to do a UA. How silly of them! Grrrr. Anyway, She begins looking at my other labs because I ask her to.
I needed a slew of labs drawn that day and she scanned my labs that had already been drawn over the last 5 years and I show her how my Thyroid ones were always slightly off, but no one ever addressed that. She said that without further testing, the basic labs would make it look like they are normal and I told her I knew that and I told the docs I knew that and how annoying it is that I told them that but no one ever would draw any other labs. She said she would - and did. (I'll have to ask her what she drew.)
I got a call from my doc yesterday that said I have Hypothalamic Hypothyroidism aka Tertiary Hypothyroidism. The symptoms are the same as with Hypothyroidism - just more so.
I AM NOT CRAZY!!!
It seems that having a hypothyroid mimics Alzheimer's in many people. raising hand
It seems that having a hypothyroid makes people extremely exhausted all the time. raising hand
It seems that having a hypothyroid makes some people hurt, ache, be in pain all the time. raising hand
It seems that having a hypothyroid makes some people struggle in depression even when all the normal routes and avenues are covered. raising hand
It seems that people with an hypothyroid struggle with their weight even when "doing everything right." raising hand
It seems that people with an hypothyroid have a voice like Lauren Bacall. raising hand
It seems that my thin hair, my always being cold, my lack of sweating, my thick skin (not the kind that keeps me from crying, though), my high cholesterol, and my having to take fiber pills might all be related to my thyroid, too.
I should be starting the meds tonight and should feel some relief in 2 days and much, much better in a week. Wouldn't that be amazing? Can you imagine? If I didn't feel like I was going to faint anymore? If I didn't feel like I needed a nap three times a day? If I had hair again? If I didn't feel like I was a candidate for the looney bin?
I can't wait to see what my new norm is.
I can hardly wait.
wiping tears because I am so thrilled to not be crazy for knowing it wasn't in my head