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Red-Faced Embarrassment


- Post on the blog about my being on 30 Days
- Email friends, family, midwives, doulas about my being on 30 Days
- 10:00 am - Be called to last-minute assist another midwife I don't usually assist... mom is 8 cm
- 5:00 pm - Mom still isn't delivered and midwife is unsure of transfer, mom put to bed, I go out to eat dinner
- 6:00 - 7:00 pm - I am called to a client with advanced signs of PIH/pre-eclampsia; we're meeting at the hospital after an hour of discussion
7:00 pm - Midwife calls her usual assistant who is sitting with her own client in the hospital - 1st midwife's client is now 10 cm and pushing; Client in hospital is sleeping with epidural
7:15pm - Grab chart at office (mom is 35 weeks) and head up 60 miles with apprentice who met me at the office
8:30 pm - Meet mom in Triage - Labs being ordered, mom still exhibiting signs of PIH/PE, fetal heart tones 200, then resolved
8:35 pm - Daughter 2 calls from Central Time Zone -

"Uh, mom? Did they edit you out?"

sinking feeling


In the background her fiance is hollering "She hasn't seen it yet!"

"Uh, I watched and never blinked and they didn't show you at all."


I implore, "They didn't show ?! They didn't show the SIX women I got together that had had abortions and were still thankful for their decisions?!? The group of women who BARED THEIR SOULS TO A CAMERA?!?!"


"They didn't show me AT ALL going to the home and talking with the Pastor and his wife about being a pro-choice midwife?!?"


Laughter begins to erupt from my center. Luckily, it was a light moment anyway with the client who wanted to be entertained with stories.

I start laughing, red-faced, laughing that I told soooooooooooooooooo many people about the show. How people were watching for "the bald one" and they were going to think I was the Pastor. My apprentice takes off on that and says people will say, "She seems a little more butch than I expected, but she IS married to a woman."

I am more embarrassed than I can say, so all I do is laugh until the labs come back normal and we all go home with post-visit instructions to watch for continuing PIH signs and a suggestion that I draw labs every 2-3 days if symptoms persist.

In the car, on the way home, the apprentice and I howl with laughter while eating gourmet chocolate. I know I have to write in my blog that I was edited out and I wince, feeling so, so embarrassed because people will think I was merely shoving my agenda down their throats or I clandestinely work for the show and wanted to up the ratings.

Alas, it isn't so sinister as that at all.

I was merely edited out.

The last contact with the producer was by phone and she signed off with, "I really think you will be pleased with the outcome."

My apprentice said I should call her today and say, "Not so much."

laughing laughing

so so embarrassed

Reader Comments (11)

Yeah, do you laugh or cry?

"Not so much" would be a good response.

Maybe they turned it into a series?

August 24, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterLindsay

We don't get that cable channel, so I didn't see it.

At least they didn't edit to present you negatively...but still it sucks when you put so much time and energy into something & then to not even get a second of air time.

It's a reality show...you'd think they'd want to have lots of footage of a bald, lesbian, pro-choice midwife.

I wonder did they find your stuff not exciting enough or did it threaten the message they wanted to create?

August 24, 2006 | Unregistered Commenterchartreuseova

I ended up finding it, and figuring out that they had just completely changed the show.

And actually, your embarrassment at NOT being on is understandable.

On the other hand, I was embarrassed after my appearance on a TLC because I WAS ON the show. ARGH...

I do find it interesting that no one warned you of the edits. Weird.


I watched it at 10pm and didn't see you. Then I thought, "How could I have missed her. I didn't even move during the commercials." I started watching it again at 11pm and then realized that they must have cut your portion. I enjoyed watching it anyway.

August 24, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterMimi

hmmm...maybe you should call them back and suggest a future episode of 30-days

An ob forced to shadow a midwife - preferably a busy one, or several, for 30 days?

Wonder if it would change an OB's mind about homebirth/natural birth?

Maybe the footage will be used in some other episode in the future?

August 24, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterOpening Pandora

OMIGOSH...I LOVE Pandora's idea!


I was looking forward to seeing you! Too bad. We shall just have to do breakfast again :-)

August 24, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterAnonymous

OMG Barb, I love Pandora's idea, too! Approach the producers!!


August 24, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterAnonymous

i'll forgive you...even though i missed project runway to watch 30 days!

seriously, you should contact the show about pandora's idea. i think it's fab as well.

August 25, 2006 | Unregistered Commenternolabarb

Now, c'mon. You all REALLY think I let the opportunity pass to suggest this to the producers when they were hanging out with me for a day? NO WAY!

I also formally suggested the idea on their website weeks ago.

Great minds think alike!

I offered to host, be the midwife, find an OB, or any variation of what they wanted to do.

We'll see if they ever bite.

August 25, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterNavelgazing Midwife

lol....maybe if they ever nibble, you should contact Dr. Diamond for a referral.....I'm sure he can find a suitable canidate for the drama factor...plus he seemed to like you, from what I could tell between pushes! :)

August 26, 2006 | Unregistered CommenterOpening Pandora

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