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Re-Writing Progress (odd)

The revision of two posts earlier has transformed into a loooonnnnggggg piece about birth abuse/trauma/rape. I don't know where it came from or is coming from, but I am being driven to write about this. I haven't in a long time, haven't had anyone come along talking about it necessarily, but it's just coming out of my fingers.

So, I am working on it, but it's taking time. I write a little, stop to think/process, then write some more. I keep sighing and Sarah asks what is wrong. I tell her it's just a heavy piece I'm writing. As I research, I am reading all sorts of yucky things about assault, battery, rape and then birth Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (aka Post-Traumatic Birth Disorder). Not zippy, happy topics, no matter from which angle you look at it. It's hard, sometimes, to remember that birth isn't always so happy.

I'm not on another writing strike; just taking time to write this piece (unnamed at the moment). Thanks for your patience!

Reader Comments (5)

Speaking of abuse, check out the most recent comment on my birth post, mom was knocked out against her wishes, forcepts, 100! stitches.


September 16, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterRayne of Terror

I cannot wait to read it! You've got quite a following here in western PA. I came to reread the older post because of a recent experience with a current client. Your insights are so enormously appreciated!

September 16, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterPittsburgh Doula

No doubt a difficult piece to write. But also probably a valuable piece for the many women out there who have had to go through this hell and have/had to face birth. There are hardly any resources available when they face the gigantic/traumatic challenge of birth they have ahead of them. There are out there alone - all literature is focused on the joy of birth, on giving birth from the eyes of a "regular" woman. No word mentioned about the obstacles survivors face. Birth and previous abuse seem not to belong together. It is tough, really tough being left alone with the past issues not being of any relevance for the expected delivery. One feels damn lonely and helpless for the complete 40 weeks. Believe me, I know! It has been 15 months after d-day and it is still present.
Please take your time and work on this entry! Many will secretly be extremely thankful that they see they are not alone out there! More bloggers in the Midwife/Nurse/Doula area should go into those stories. The challenges, little baby steps and victories of survivors!
Thanks in advance for not ignoring this matter in this oh so joyful world of births & new lives!

September 16, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterCathy

I've never heard "post-traumatic birth disorder". I prefer "postpartum post-traumatic stress disorder" or "postpartum PTSD". With birth abuse, it is not the birth that was traumatic, it's the events that occur at the time of the birth. Also, some say "postpartum traumatic stress" because their are 9 hoops to jump through to get the diagnosis of PTSD, and many women fall slightly short, yet have significant symptoms of trauma. 18% of women who responded to the New Mothers Speak Out Survey (http://www.childbirthconnection.org/article.asp?ClickedLink=334&ck=10068&area=27) said they had symptoms of trauma following their birth, and 9% of those had enough symptoms to be diagnosed with PTSD. So, there is a lot of traumatic stress going on which may be undiagnosed (because it falls slightly short of any diagnostic criteria) or more likely being misdiagnosed as PPD.

September 16, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterJennifer Z.

I'm so looking forward to reading this.

Count me in as a "survivor" who had to claw her way back from the brink. Now I'm looking at having my second child in May, and I'm so aware that I'm not processing this like a normal woman. I don't trust anyone, and I'm finding it hard to decide what to do, who to turn to, who to trust when I'm in labor (especially since I was so drawn to UC even before I had my first birth).

September 18, 2009 | Unregistered CommenterLeslie Kung

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