Cesarean Scar: Joy

What do my scars say?

Scar 1

Heartbreak.  Disconnect.  Confusion.  Anger.  Pain.

Bumpy.  Red.  Sore.  Knotted.  Angry.

Out of place.

Unsupported.

Groggy.

Distanced from my baby.  Ignored.  Left out.

VBAC

Determined.  Focused.  Natural.  My terms.  Unafraid.

Intense.  Overwhelming.  An experience.

Attempted.

I carried to the operating room the benefits of the labor experience.

I carried to the operating room the peace that I had tried and that this time it was MY decision.

Old scar cut away from me, in so many ways.

Scar 2

Less bumpy.  Less raw.  Calmer.  Less Angry.

Disappointed.

More connected.

Joyful.

Supported.  United with my child.  Skin to skin, nursing.

My child never leaving my side.

Respected.

The difference?  Education.  Preparation.  Prayer.  Support.  Advocacy.  Bravery.

 

Comments

[Miz Angie]

I love the photo at the end. I have 3 kids and the last pregnancy/birth experience has left me with endless nightmares and questioning how well I know my child from seperation and I even had him vaginally.I am going to create "words" to express each birth as a "release" to hopefully help me put the horrors of my 3rd pregnancy/birth behind me. Thank you for this idea maybe someday I will get the guts go email my story as mine is something out of the ordinary. Thank you for this great website!!