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Let's see... lots has happened.

Zack and I broke up in December.

I moved to Orlando, Florida in late December after driving across the country with my daughter Aimee and the 2 dogs. I live with a dear friend and her family while my doggies are living with my mom 6 miles away.

I've been very, very sad about the loss of my 28-year relationship with Zack, but am trying to stay positive to the things that might come to me here, across the country.

It's a lot hotter here in Orlando than anything San Diego could give me.

I have to go to school for 3 years if I want to be a FL Licensed Midwife. Not sure that's going to happen. I want to be a Monitrice more than a Midwife, but still have to get licensed here to do that.

I'm exploring other options, including possibly working at Disney World again (a job I loved!). It would close a door on birth, but maybe I am due for a new season.

I'm becoming a SMART Recovery Facilitator (a secular AA/NA/OA sort of group) so I can bring SMART meetings to Orlando. SMART has become a very important part of my life.

It's been a relief to leave San Diego's midwifery community.

I get to see my dogs every day and take them to the dog park several times a week. They have kept me saner than anything else.

I also get to see my mom every day and she is a delight! She makes me laugh lots. I am glad I get to be here for her last years.

My girls pay for my membership to the Y and I go at least 3 times a week to ride the exercise bike. It isn't helping with my weight, but it should be doing something good, right?

I got to spend Christmas with my girls and grandbabies and it was a delight!

I'm selling my mother's Disney memorabilia for her on several Facebook Disney Selling sites. I'm meeting some cool people! Who knew there were such rabid pin collectors?!

I have something weird happening with my right groin/leg... I go for a sono next week to see what's up.

I have all my new docs set up here and things are good. I also have a great therapist who is a Mindfulness teacher. We have lots in common despite her being younger than my youngest child.

Zack and I remain good friends. He is someone I will always love; we just couldn't make the trans thing work. We, quite literally, grew apart. He will always be the great love of my life. *wiping tears*

I need/want to write more. So much is tenuous, I just don't know what to write yet. Will this remain a birth blog if I go work at Disney? Could I go to births on my days off? The way my leg feels, I am glad I am not on-call right now. But, I do miss birth.


More soon!

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As someone who is a long time reader of your blog, (HUGS). May YOUR transition to this new stage in life be smooth and full of nothing but good things. I hope you stay active in the birthing world, I've often appreciated your honesty even when it wasn't the most popular opinion.

March 10, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterCynthia R.

So many changes! I wish you the best and would love to hear updates on your new adventure, even if it's not about birth. Hugs!

March 10, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterLaura

I am glad to see you posting again. You have a unique voice - I have missed you!

I am so sorry about your relationship. I was really glad to hear that you remain friends. It's your personal business, but this is how blogs work, I guess: you start to care about strangers. So, sad and happy for you respectively.

I'm currently on a homebirth midwife hunt in San Francisco and I have been poring over old posts of yours from years ago. It is really helpful material. It is so frustrating to me that I as a consumer have the responsibility of trying to judge the adequacy of the education of the professional I am trying to hire. I am probably better positioned than most to do this because of my background, and it is still just a dark little hellhole of an activity. The point here is: thanks for leaving your old stuff up.

I would be delighted to read what you have to say about birth in the future, but equally delighted to follow any new adventures you take. I really do enjoy your thoughtful and honest writing.

All my best to you!

March 10, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterJMT

Thanks for the update! Sounds like hard things and good things are happening all over your life. I look forward to hearing about your adventures whether they are birth related or not.

March 11, 2015 | Unregistered CommenterLarissa

hi there, i started reading your blog during recovery from the birth of my son a few months ago - i learnt a lot here. i feel and felt that my hospital vaginal birth was a good experience and that my choice of care providers was right, i never felt scared because i trusted doctors and midwifes and wasnt let down.
just reading your last blog entry i wanted to wish you all the best for the future, whatever decision you take!
greetings from vienna, austria

March 25, 2015 | Unregistered Commenterdee

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